how do you even begin to describe how someone makes you feel? you know exactly what they make you feel, but the words just, aren't there. and maybe that's the point. maybe this whole thing is just supposed to feel surreal. unreal. out of this world. like someone up there is having a very big laugh at the circumstances. but also, very much, in awe of what they've put together.
you know how when two kids meet after a really long time, or two dogs meeting for a playdate, and they just run to each other with absolutely no care in the world? that's how it feels. except, you didn't know you were running towards each other. you were just running. because nobody knows what's ahead anyway. and apparently, this is what was ahead.
do you ever wonder what it's like to have someone walk into your life, completely unaware of the effect they're going to have on your entire being? and the same for them, in their own timeline, doing their own thing, also not knowing how you're about to hit them with a topsy turvy. both of you, just going about your lives, until some greater force brings you together. and then, nothing is the same.
the way you feel about yourself. the things you thought were right and wrong. the way you express, move, breathe, and just lose yourself around them. it's almost like time has stopped and you don't know what's what. but really, time is flying. you're both just unbothered about everything else. this person you've only known a little while should not feel like someone you've known forever. and yet, that is exactly how it feels. the comfort is just there. can't be explained. mind boggling. reality and daydreaming have blurred lines.
its like this... one of you is happy, the other is happy. one is ecstatic, the other is ecstatic. not because of the same reason, but just... because the other person is. seeing them light up, lifts you. seeing you excited, excites them. irrespective of why, or for what. your energies are just, in sync. and the same goes for the hard stuff too. which is maybe why it feels scary. because of this intensity. because of how strongly you can be moved by someone else's being. and even more so when both of you are empaths. when both of you are souls that feel everything really strongly, really deeply, it's very extreme. in the most beautiful, overwhelming way.
then there's the flip side. the warmth. the pull. the almost undeniable draw towards each other across a room. you probably wouldn't keep your hands off each other if you absolutely didn't have to, for other people's sake of course, and they'd still sense it anyway. just the way you look at each other. every glance, every smile is electric. is calm. is reassuring. is endearing. you're both sooo incredibly aware of the effect you have on each other. and when you come across someone like this, it's a lot. and yet, you'd have to be out of your mind not to want to keep each other in your lives. FOR. EVER. (might not be enough) because this doesn't happen often. and for some people, probably ever. it's like you're puzzle pieces, if you know the analogy. cant live with somehow, incomplete without. all i understand is that i dont understand
but like i said, you met each other at just the right time. cosmic timing, apparently it's called. right time because you've both had your own experiences, in your own ways, and that basically set the stage for your story together. neither of you knows how it's going to play out. there's no playwright. well, not that we know of at least. so you just want. and believe. and hope. with every fiber of your being, that you stay in each other's lives. the SAME WAY, come what may.
what makes this different from anything else is that it's not one sided. you're both equally, completely, undone by each other. and somehow, in some 'i-wish-i-had-words-for-this' typa way, that's the most grounding feeling in the world.
i love it when people find another soul that feels like a piece of them. these are more than soul mates. i feel like soul mates complete you, these were always part of you. and that, in my opinion, is the nicest way someone can say "you are my home" without actually ever saying anything at all.
sigh.
okay byeee. xo